Is it Too Much To Ask

that ones of my best friends might actually want to spend time with me???!!!

(The following blog is kind of... explicit and has lots of inappropriate language. Joe, I would advise you not to read any farther... Actually, I'd feel better if nobody read any farther, because I'm really just ranting. REALLY ranting... you can read it if you want to.)
Further note: since writing this, I have calmed down A LOT and I went through and editted the parts of this that really embarrassed me, but I didn't want to just delete the whole blog, because I want to be able to look back on this one day after this is FAARRRR behind us.
Anyway, it is more appropriate now... but you can use your imagination.

Apparently, it is.

Ugh. I HATE feeling like I'm putting so much into a friendship and not seeing much of a return on it.

When the hell did a freaking girl who he's only known a few months become more important than the plans we have had since before they EVEN STARTED DATING??
I guess when she bought him and iPod and a cell phone and a ton of clothes and started *edit* him.
That must be the problem. I only provide, you know, fun and friendship and loyalty and all that other useless *edit*.
Maybe if I *edit edit edit* he would actually want to hang out with me once this summer.
That's not even the point.
He says he has plans FOR THE WHOLE WEEK OF HIS BIRTHDAY when he KNEW that we were supposed to hang out. I couldn't care LESS if he wants to spend his birthday with his girlfriend, but WHAT THE HELL? He can't save ONE DAY to spend with me?



I was going to bake that asshole a birthday cake.

Ok, I feel a little better after that rant.
Sorry.

In the middle of Summer!

I literally have nothing to write about... but I'm bored, so I'm gonna anyway.
This has potential to be the DUMBEST post EVER!!... except for the one that Joe made me write about him.

I got to lay out in the sun today... and yesterday.
Not that it's really doing anything, but it lets me kill a couple hours.

I'm sooooooooooo booooooooorrrrrrrreeeeeeeedddddddddddddd.
I miss Emma and Sara Beth and Geoff.
Emma and Sara Beth are both at camp and (duh) Geoff's in Europe.
He is going to Berlin tomorrow.

OK, I found something better to do.

See ay later, suckas!

LA face with an Oakland Booty

We brought Geoffrey to the airport today.

My dad is a nervous wreck. He's so worried that Geoff and Leland are going to get into trouble... like being mugged or scammed, or sommething that has to do with them not being able to come home if they have to... not like he thinks they are going to CAUSE trouble.

So my mom, Daphne, and I dropped them off at the security checkpoint. My mom's eyes welled up, but that was it.
It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but I guess that's because it was really abrupt. we went them to check their bags and then walked all of 100 feet with them to security, then we left. I guess I was expecting more time with them... and now I'm just waiting for it to hit me that I'm not going to see them until July 12th and I want to keep myself buusy so that I don't have to think about it so much.. at least until I get used to it.

So tomorrow: First thing, CLEAN MY BATHROOM. from top to bottom. I'm gonna play some music really loudly and lock myself in there (with the window open so the cleaning fumes don't kill me) and clean the whole thing. And I don't have to worry about Geoff making a mess in there for a whole month. ahhhh bliss.

Then! I'm going to take a shower. Probably in my parents' bathroom because I'm not going to want to mess my up.

Then! I'm going to check my Facebook and see if Joe replied to my message and if not, I'm going to call him to see if he can go to the movies with us tomorrow.
I'm going to see The Hangover with Kayla and Ashley and I think Caleb. Even though I've already seen it, but it was SO FUNNY!
Last time I saw it, it was supposed to be me, Kayla, Ashley, and Jeffkidd, but Ashley and Kayla both flaked out at the last minute leaving me alone with Jeffkidd. I think they did it on purpose.

Anyway! After the movie, I don't know what I'm going to do...

Maybe I'll read more of the Scarlet Letter. I've only read up to page 60 so far. :/
And not because I'm not putting time into it, but it takes me a while to get through it because the language is weird and I keep getting distracted and then I have to go back and re-read what I already read.

Anyway, this is turning out to be a pretty good summer.
:)

PS. If you are wondering about the title, Kayla says that I'm growing a butt. YAY! I've always been totally flat-assed. HAHAHA!
Peace.