Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Well, Here I Go

Andrea, this is for you.

I just read like 6 months worth of your blog posts, and I feel like I should reciprocate.
The last thing I wrote about was not doing my Calculus homework. Well I've been graduated for two months now. Ha, shit happens.

The lovely Andrea Claire Evans and I had a little chat about getting in shape after watching Harry Potter (which was an amazing movie), and I'm going to do it.
I joined this website called, and in joining, it asked for my current and target weight. So I used in height-weight ratio thing and found out that I'm pretty damn close to what my target weight should be. So I felt like an impostor on that website.
Don't get me wrong, I am by NO MEANS in shape. I'm actually in terrible shape. I'm just not really overweight.
So, yes, I could still stand to go work out every once in a while.
Wanna know what I hate? I have cellulite on my thunder thighs. I bought a bunch of cute summer clothes yesterday, and I know people will be able to see it.
My massive legs are genetic (I think). My grandma has always been thin, but she has the same legs as me.
So, I guess what I'm trying to say is that the main place that I actually want to change the size of, is my legs. Everything else just needs some muscle tone.
So that's the goal. I already have a gym membership, so I'm going to try to wake up early enough to start going to some of Kathleen's classes. I've been to a step aerobics and a yoga/pilates class of hers, and I really really liked them both. They're just at the crack of dawn.
I am not a morning person. The fact that it is 1:25pm and I'm eating breakfast while I type this should illustrate that.

In other, non-weight loss news:
-My parents are out of town. They left this morning for Nashville for a giant car group thing that my dad is a part of. It's just me and my brother in the house until Sunday, and I work nights and he works days, so we probably won't see very much of each other.
- Sunday was my six month-aversary with Jeff. Longest relationship either of us has ever been in... Ok, only relationship I've ever been in, but whatever.
- Saturday I'm going to a concert that Jeff's brother's band is in at the Hard Rock in Atlanta. I just bought cool new stuff that I want to wear. I'll probably be overdressed, ESPECIALLY next to Jeff who doesn't own anything but jeans and t-shirts. Whatever. I'll look hot.
- My last day of work will be August 3rd. Then I move in to UGA a week later. Yikes! The real world is so close!
- Ummm.... I went shopping yesterday. I want to wear all of my clothes right now. But that would look silly.

MY GOAL: Go to the gym tomorrow.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010


so I could have worked on my calculus after school, before practice.... but it's pay day
-stephanie and i got our checks and went to cash them, then got dinner
I had some time to kill after we ate.... but I felt the need to spend $40 on make up and crap
-We went to CVS until time for practice
After practice, I had to bring Stephanie back to her car at Zaxby's.... we discovered a physics party
-I sat with the physics kids for about 30 mins and drove home
I could have done homework immediately when I got home.... there was apple crisp in the kitchen
-I ate apple crisp and watched the end of Law and Order: SVU
I could have done homework after that.... but my backpack is falling apart
-dad and I put it together with zip ties (yay for rednecking it up)
then I went to my room, presumably to start my Calc.... but I remembered the new makeup
-I used a little of everything, just to try it out
I should have started after that, but I wanted to check my Psych grade
-I pulled out my laptop and immediately got on Facebook


Sunday, September 26, 2010

words to live by

"I get up every morning determined to both change the world and having one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult."
-E.B. White

Thursday, September 16, 2010

energizer bunny

I just keep going and going and going and going and going....

I know that I asked for this work load. I know that I wanted this schedule. I know that I chose to be involved in these activities.

I didn't know that all the forces in the universe would work against me to keep me from getting anything done.

I didn't know that sleep wouldn't even be an option anymore.

I didn't know that I would have to cut off relationships with friends for a lack of time to see them.

I just want to relax.- nothing on my mind- for a little while.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010


Who decided that 24 hours was enough in a day?
It's time for me to find a time machine and kick some Ancient-we-only-have-to-farm-so-24-hours-seems-like-plenty-of-time-for-us ASS! It's not enough! There is so much to do!

This is my brain right now:

Yeah. almost exactly like that. I can't focus, and I can't prioritze.


Tuesday, August 31, 2010

This evening's motto

"There is no pleasure in having nothing to do; the fun is in having lots to do and not doing it"
-Mary Wilson Little

I AGREE, Mary Wilson Little.
So with that, I say GOODNIGHT WORLD!

Monday, August 30, 2010

I am a misshapen puzzle piece

I don't feel like I'm really fulfilling anything right now.

I'm... just average. I want to feel like I'm excelling in ALL of my classes. I want praise. I want to know that people like to be with me. I want to know that I'm great at my job. I guess maybe I just want recognition.

Because, right now, I just feel like I don't quite fit into any of my many roles this year. I'm participating. I'm keeping up. but i want to go above and beyond.

But I can't. being average has taken all of my time. All of my energy. Being average is holding me back. I do what I can, and I pass out on my bed just to wake up super early the next morning and strive to just do ok again. WHY CAN'T I JUST HAVE IT ALL?

Why don't I just have beautiful camera angles in Multimedia? Why don't I fully understand how to find logos? Why can't I remember everything we've covered about limits? Why don't I already know all that I can about vectors? Why haven't I already aced my 1st psych test? Why don't people always laugh at my jokes? why don't i always look pretty? Why am I using so many rhetorical questions??

It must stop. I need to sleep. but i ALWAYS need to sleep. I really need to read about vectors. maybe i'll do that.
but... as i type, i have to actuallly think about holding my eyes open.
That's not a good sign.