and that's ok! (Panic! At the Disco)
Anyway, I haven't been on here for soo long.
And I'm neglecting my faithful readers! (Ya know. Nobody)
So yeah, I looked back at some of my old posts, and everything is sooo different!
Looking back, a lot of my latest posts have been really kind of sad. I complained about not being able to be happy, and about being totally stressed, and all this other crap.
I'm here to say that that is definitely not the case anymore.
I'm definitely happy. For sure.
But that brings me to hwat I actually wanted to write about.
I have a friend (and I'm really not going to use names here) who has cut herself. She also has told me that being sad makes her feel alive.
That idea is just completely mind-bending to me.
Why would you not feel alive if you're happy?
Why would you not feel alive if you're angry?
How can you ever feel dead??
Obviously, you are alive. The sensation (wrong word, but close enough) of that should never ever change?
Should it?
Is feeling 'alive' relative?
I can't even wrap my head around this. Like how you would feel un-alive (?).
I guess I probably shouldn't be writing about it considering that I have NO IDEA what I'm talking about.
Oh well.
I'll just let this marinate for a while.
Peace!
